Dugaan Allah

hmmm....our one an only maid yang jaga daddy she is leaving next monday. So now we are maidless except for my maid. Siapa nk jaga daddy? I'm already 35 weeks still running around like a mad chicken. Ingat baru lah boleh bernafas tapi silap besar. She is leaving sebab tak sabar nak kahwin. By right her contract smpi bulan julai tapi dah mak dia suruh balik.... Do i have to take leave again? i have took leave for 2 months sementara nak dapatkan my maid. Baru nak start kerja dah diduga lagi. Tahun 2009 mmg byk betul dugaan smpikan i don't feel the excitement untuk dapat baby. Sian baby i'm so sorry sayang. Tadi pergi check up my hemoglobin is very low. Pasrah jelah apa boleh buat life still have to go on.

Bibik

Alhamdulillah eusoff dah pun dapat bibik so far she is okay. Tak boleh nk puji sgt sebab too soon to tell. Tapi first day masa i nk start kerja balik ya allah tuhan je yang tahu sebab bila dgr eusoff menangis dlm pangkuan dia. Pastuh siap depakan tgn minta dukung dari my self alahai my hati rasa nak runtuh... How i wish i can always stay at home for ever gaji my hubby beribu riban boleh tolong byrkan sekali my hutang2 bolehlah i can spend more time with my beloved son and coming baby. I'm really greatfull to god for giving me beatiful son haraplah keceriaan akan kekal sampai akhir hayat no more dugaan berat. Now just kena pikir helper for daddy pulak sebab helper yang ada sekarang nak balik kahwin. hmmm yelah that's lumrah mana2 manusia bila dah jumpa jodoh mesti nak kahwinkan. Diaorang dah spend 2 years berjasa pun dah cukup baik. If i'm in their position i don't think i would ever want kerja macam diaorg.

Bila baca pasal bibik dera anak majikan dan tinggalkan budak kecik ya allah mintalah dijauhkan dari eusoff dan adiknya. Janganlah ada sekelumit dalam hati bibik untuk pukul atau marah eusoff dan adik. They are times eusoff kekadang mmg menguji kesabaran yelah biasalah budak tgh lasak. I can't always be with her and eusoff 24 jam kalau macam tu baik tak yah amik bibikkan. During weekends I will cook, mandikan eusoff and tidokan eusoff dia cuma perlu buat kerja rumah kalau itupun tak bersyukur tak tahulahkan.

Bila baca paper kebanyakan pasal majikan dera pembantu. Tapi apa jadi pada majikan yang didera pembantu secara mentally kita sebagai majikan macam dah tak dapat pembelaan bila pembantu lari, dera kita secara mentally yelah nak marah takut dia apa2kan anak kita atau dia lari, pastuh kalau dia ada hp secara diam2 bila tertangkap pun kita lost , takkan nak perhatikan dia 24 jam pulak nak tak nak kena juga tawakal tinggalkan dia sendirian dgn anak kita. Tgk contoh my mom lah jaga hati maid bagai nak rak siap bila diaorg minta hp bawa g kedai boleh pilih hp mana nak. Bila nak advance my mom akan bagi dgn harapan diaorg akan buat kerja dgn baik tapi akhirnya lari. Tak ke rasa terkilan. Inilah ketentuan allah ada hikmahnya tapi belum nampak lagi.

Hope for the best.

Latest Pic of Eusoff

Gambar ni mostly masa g cameron dulu dgn Adom's clan.
Cousin Helmi yg snapkan. Tq so much ur touch is superb!

SAHM

It has been a month i've been SAHM. Best jugak sebenarnya tapi ni semua atas jasa baik my boss for really understanding with my difficuilty. It all happen bila one of our maid lari hampeh betul... Dah lari satu hal pastuh meninggalkan hutang keliling pinggang. Pastuh g jaja cerita buruk bout my family yg lagi i 'm really mad sebab selama ni dia selalu marah my dad yg terlantar sakit... depan pijak semut pun tak mati tapi hakikatnya itulah. Wallahualam kalau dia pernah pukul or cubit eusoff. Bila dah lari almost 1 week siap sms our another maid nk pinjam duit dahlah ko g curik duit org tu dgn cincin emas lagi tak tahu malu nk pinjam duit apa punya oranglah. Latest dia nak gambar my dad and eusoff! mak aii apa dia buat dia kata nk buat kenangan.Malanglah majikan baru dia. Tapi i just pray for the best for her i will never forget jasa baik dia.

I really hate maid2 yg ada kat kawasan rumah they really like to amik tahu kisah orang. Pastuh suka compare gaji and work load. Siap ada sorang tu kalau dia mals masak or rasa tak sedap boleh dengan selamba kata dia malas dan suruh majikan dia makan luar! Senang betul hidup maid itu and she claim she is dia ketua kampung kat that area semua maids kat situ kena dgr cakap dia.

Hmm talking bout maids smpi bebila tak habis if only my dad tak sakit mmg i tak nk amik maids. Tapi apakan daya. Kalau tak guna khidmat diaorg siapa nk tolong jaga daddy... I cakap betullah i can't jaga daddy with my condition. Kalau dulu masih single gagah jugaklah. Hari tu ada sekali my dad punya hoist stuck! so I had to help my maid to angkat dia. Ya allah lepas tu jugak muntah and rasa nak pitam masa tu i was almost 28 weeks. I pray to god what the best for him and us. To jaga my dad is not as easy as people think my dad mmg nmpk terlantar je tapi his mind is working. So he can tell us what he want. He has his own timetable! tak boleh tidak kena ikut bukannya kisah org tu penat ke sakit ke boring ke. Kalau dulu masa my dad tak cerewet sangat senang je jaga. Tapi bila dia dah mula nk bersuara dan dah pandai marah2 org mmg uji kesabaran. Kalau org yg dtg tgk sekali sekala bolehlah ada patient. Tapi kitaorg yg kat rumah ni adakala hilang sabar gak. Tapi takdelah smpi nk memukul atau marah. Pukul 6 am till 2 am org kena jaga dia je. If i jadi maid pun benggangkan.. I pun selalu cakap kat my dad tolonglah ada perasaan belas kesian kat org. Tapi itulah ujian allah pada kami sekeluarga. Kekadang i'm confiused nk kesian siapa sebenarnya my dad or my mom.

Talking bout eusoff lak dia dah makin bijak he love to watch video yusoff islam and simple songs from you tube. Since i always ada kat rumah he is so clingy dgn my self especially masa nak tido. Risau gak nnti mcm manalah bila adik dia dah lahir. Latest eusoff height is 82cm and weight 11kg. Dia dah pandai salam cium tgn. Tak takut org alhamdulillah. Can say yes and no. Boleh angguk lagi2 kalau dia nak sgt susu. Wish that i can just stay at home forever and jaga eusoff dan adik dia. He loves to read books any kind of books dia akan bawak to me and ask me to read it. Harap2 kekallah tabiat ni.

For adik pulak i'm already 31 weeks. So far okay everything seems to be fine. Ambiotic fluid cukup adik pun active. Praying hard that i can beranak normal. Sebab i nak anak ramai :). Semua barang2 adik dah pun kemas semua dapat dari sepupu dia alya and few from eusoff masa new born dulu. Mengandung kali ni my weight tak bertambah sgt and my perut tak besar sgt. Even sekarang i can still pki baju2 kurung yg lama2. Mostly org tak percaya yg i'm already going to be 8 months. Tak kisahlah asal baby okay i'm fine with it. Lagipun ada blessing gak kot...kalau perut memboyot macam mana nak angkat eusoff. Sekarang ni pun i still dukung dia macam biasa.

My hope and pray 2009 ni ada sinar baru dlm my life and my family. Semoga ouir family are bless dgn rahmatNya. More hapiness... insya allah.

Happy 1st Birthday Eusoff

Today our dearest eusoff is 1 year old. Can't believe that dia dah besar dah nak jadi abg pun :). Kitaorg tak celebrate since ayah dia kena kerja malam huhuhuhu and me myself malas nak buat apa sebab bulan puasa. I just bagi jamuan buka puasa kat surau. Sharp midnight masa tgh BF him i whispered kat telinga eusoff wish him tapi dia mamai so dia tak kisah je. At 4 am dia terjaga nak susu so i bangun nak bancuhkan formula for him and before suapkan botol susu i sang happy birthday to him and kiss at his both cheeks he was smiling and talking happily. Clever boy.

My hope..

• eusoff jadi anak yang baik i.e soleh taat pada perintah Allah, dapat pikul tanggungjawab sebagai abg sulung untuk jaga mummy , ayah dan adik2 insya allah.
  
• Berjaya dalam setiap bidang yang diceburi at the moment nampak macam he is into music and he likes to watch game show i.e BOLOS adoi ayah dia dok ajar la ni..

Achievement ..

• Pandai mengigit kalau suruh dia tido dok dodoi dia kat bahu dia gigit bahu. Tapi mimi tak pernah kena gigit kat bahu sebab tak pernah tidokan dia cam tu i always BF dia je terus dia lelap. So dgn mimi , eusoff akan gigit my perut kalau lambat bangun huhuhu berbekas ada 4 batang gigi at the moment tapi mcm nak tumbuh banyak lagi setiap erytime bila gosokkan gigi dia ada je rasa keras2 kat gusi dia
  
• Sentiasa nak berdiri dah banyak kali jatuh berbekas kat semua tempat dahilah, hidunglah, lutut dgn tapak tgn kulit dah mula mengelupas sebab lasak sangat adoi mengah dibuatnya
• Naik tangga dah hebat dari bawah sampailah atas so mmg tak payah dukung
• He knows where is the ceiling fan
• He can say out loud DUCK
• He loves books compared to TV
• He likes to senyum kat orang yang dia jarang jumpa tapi bila nak dukung melalak macam jinak2 merpati

Itulah our beloved boy. Next entry will be yang lama2 yang tak sempat nak tulis.

update on eusoff and adik

On 14 August 2008 our beloved eusoff dah 11 months old sekejap je dah besar. He is now almost 11 kg. I can't dukung him lama2 rasa sakit kat rahim. His progress:

• dah boleh duduk dari baring dgn pantas sekali
• boleh berdiri sendiri
• kalau kita pimpin tangan dia dah boleh jalan
• mulut riuh sangat
• demanding kalau tak nak mmg dia akan melalak kena mengalah je lah
• so far kalau bawa g jejalan senang naklah dok dlm stroller and dok diam2 kat highchair restaurant
• he really like playing with any size of ball and dgr lagu metallica adoi ayah dialah ni ajar :)
• we notice he likes men more than women macam kalau balik kajang he would rather didukung oleh my FIL and BIL rather than MIL
• now he is very clingy with me may be sebab i ada baby kot
• minum susu dah banyak sgt ada one night tu dia boleh habis 13oz! my susu badan dah kurang sgt dapat bantu pun sikit
• gigi dah ada 4 batang sakit woo bila dia gigit my nenen selalu menjerit kekadang picit hidung dia hahahhaha
• rambut dah mula banyak
• baju dia mostly size for 18 months
• eusoff kalau dia tension dia sebut mama, kalau mimi lambat attend dia jerit mummy lak kalau lambat attend lagi dia terus jerit MIMI! senang cerita. bertuah betul!

okay that's all for eusoff kita bagi kat adik and mama pulak ek.

hmmm on adik so far dah nak masuk 12 weeks alhamdulillah dah dgr bunyi jantung and nmpk jantung kepala, badan and kaki. My segala sickness masih belum hilang still muntah2, pening2, rasa letih sgt2, hilang selera makan, i don't gain weight at all, there are times rasa nak pitam. Selalu melepek je kat office uishk makan gaji buta betul. Naib baik gaklah kerja semua dah nak settle adalah few more things tapi mmg tak larat nak ngadap PC lama2. Hope i will recover soon i'm praying very hard. Tak laratlah kalau berterusan cam nih.

okay bye...i'm going home.

Backdated story... dah bersawang.

Uishks lama betul tak tulis dalam blog ni. I was not too well masa first and second week of july due to morning, evening and afternoon sickness. heheheh for those yang tak tahu lagi yes i'm pregnant again alhamdulillah last saturday dah 8 weeks. Doakanlah semoga kali ni semua selamat.

This time my sickness i.e vomitting, headache, burning sensation kat perut segala mak datuk punya sakit kat pinggang semua datang nothing compared masa mengandungkan eusoff. hmmm dahlah dengan eusoff tengah lasak dan terlebih manja dengan myself sian kat dia. Is okay i'll try to do my very best for both of them. This month was hectic for all of us kat rumah. It started dengan eusoff kena air panas, pastuh dah baik luka dia demam panas shoot up 39.9'c rupanya nak kuar measles. Nasib baik tak lama tiga hari je. Now he back active just like before. Alhamdulillah. Mulut dia sangat riuh macam bertih jagung. Setiap kali nak tido dia bercakap sorang walaupun lampu dah tido pandai dia lah tido sendiri. Sebab dah tahu dia kenyang and pampers pun dah bersih. Yahuuu sekarang dia dah buang air besar almost everyday. He likes air kosong he can finish 2 oz sekali minum. So i'll make sure he drinks at least 3 atau 4 kali sehari. Now days panas sgtlah. Pasang aircond serupa mcm tak pasang. Hopefully by the time bulan puasa nanti kuranglah cuaca panas nih insya allah.

Dalam masa tu masih sempat celebrate birthday my beloved mummy on 8 July. The night before my mom's relative uncle R + family, cousin amir and wife datang bawak cheese cake and hadiah!. Cousin amir bawa kek lapis from johor kiriman from mak P , ya allah sedapnya...tq.

The next day pulak daddy's relative pulak datang with their special dishes. Mak B dengan dalca, roti bom and satay yang sangat sedap. Mak Z dengan very nicely done carrot cup cakes, sup singapore special, homemade roti and not forgetting trifle kiwi. Mak M bawa nasi goreng and daging tetel sambal. My dearest cousin lana yang sgt creative hadiahkan mummy very lovely done cupcakes pelbagai rasa. Last but not least cousin Epi and family datang juga walaupun jauh. Thank you so much... all of us really appreaciate it. Sorry for the very late thank you. Mummy punyalah terkejut memang mimi tak beritahu langsung about the occasion.

Pic above: Delicious satay ayam, daging & perut sebelah dia sup singapore, homemade roti from Mak Z boleh nampak also roti bom Mak B and my stew daging yang i tipu mummy kata nak bawa office hahahahha, cute carrot cup cakes, secreat recipe choc indulgence, nicely decarated cup cakes from cousin Lana and spread of yummy foods. Kalau nak boleh order yummy foods boleh lawat http://www.atikahkitchen.blogspot.com/

In terms of my life pulak dahlah segala sickness ada dengan eusoff pun sakit. Kerja kat office pun berlambak. Tapi rasanya taklah sekelam kabut macam beberapa minggu lepas. Still ada few runways to settle and ada few buildings to check scalling dia. Nampak kat dalam 3ds Max dah cantik bila tengok kat IG nampak kecik lak..salah measure la ni. Is okay itu small matter. yang pening ni parking bays for helicopter aiyoo. okay selamat menyambut hari merdeka yang ke 51! Ini kira blog untuk sepanjang bulan July :)