SAHM

It has been a month i've been SAHM. Best jugak sebenarnya tapi ni semua atas jasa baik my boss for really understanding with my difficuilty. It all happen bila one of our maid lari hampeh betul... Dah lari satu hal pastuh meninggalkan hutang keliling pinggang. Pastuh g jaja cerita buruk bout my family yg lagi i 'm really mad sebab selama ni dia selalu marah my dad yg terlantar sakit... depan pijak semut pun tak mati tapi hakikatnya itulah. Wallahualam kalau dia pernah pukul or cubit eusoff. Bila dah lari almost 1 week siap sms our another maid nk pinjam duit dahlah ko g curik duit org tu dgn cincin emas lagi tak tahu malu nk pinjam duit apa punya oranglah. Latest dia nak gambar my dad and eusoff! mak aii apa dia buat dia kata nk buat kenangan.Malanglah majikan baru dia. Tapi i just pray for the best for her i will never forget jasa baik dia.

I really hate maid2 yg ada kat kawasan rumah they really like to amik tahu kisah orang. Pastuh suka compare gaji and work load. Siap ada sorang tu kalau dia mals masak or rasa tak sedap boleh dengan selamba kata dia malas dan suruh majikan dia makan luar! Senang betul hidup maid itu and she claim she is dia ketua kampung kat that area semua maids kat situ kena dgr cakap dia.

Hmm talking bout maids smpi bebila tak habis if only my dad tak sakit mmg i tak nk amik maids. Tapi apakan daya. Kalau tak guna khidmat diaorg siapa nk tolong jaga daddy... I cakap betullah i can't jaga daddy with my condition. Kalau dulu masih single gagah jugaklah. Hari tu ada sekali my dad punya hoist stuck! so I had to help my maid to angkat dia. Ya allah lepas tu jugak muntah and rasa nak pitam masa tu i was almost 28 weeks. I pray to god what the best for him and us. To jaga my dad is not as easy as people think my dad mmg nmpk terlantar je tapi his mind is working. So he can tell us what he want. He has his own timetable! tak boleh tidak kena ikut bukannya kisah org tu penat ke sakit ke boring ke. Kalau dulu masa my dad tak cerewet sangat senang je jaga. Tapi bila dia dah mula nk bersuara dan dah pandai marah2 org mmg uji kesabaran. Kalau org yg dtg tgk sekali sekala bolehlah ada patient. Tapi kitaorg yg kat rumah ni adakala hilang sabar gak. Tapi takdelah smpi nk memukul atau marah. Pukul 6 am till 2 am org kena jaga dia je. If i jadi maid pun benggangkan.. I pun selalu cakap kat my dad tolonglah ada perasaan belas kesian kat org. Tapi itulah ujian allah pada kami sekeluarga. Kekadang i'm confiused nk kesian siapa sebenarnya my dad or my mom.

Talking bout eusoff lak dia dah makin bijak he love to watch video yusoff islam and simple songs from you tube. Since i always ada kat rumah he is so clingy dgn my self especially masa nak tido. Risau gak nnti mcm manalah bila adik dia dah lahir. Latest eusoff height is 82cm and weight 11kg. Dia dah pandai salam cium tgn. Tak takut org alhamdulillah. Can say yes and no. Boleh angguk lagi2 kalau dia nak sgt susu. Wish that i can just stay at home forever and jaga eusoff dan adik dia. He loves to read books any kind of books dia akan bawak to me and ask me to read it. Harap2 kekallah tabiat ni.

For adik pulak i'm already 31 weeks. So far okay everything seems to be fine. Ambiotic fluid cukup adik pun active. Praying hard that i can beranak normal. Sebab i nak anak ramai :). Semua barang2 adik dah pun kemas semua dapat dari sepupu dia alya and few from eusoff masa new born dulu. Mengandung kali ni my weight tak bertambah sgt and my perut tak besar sgt. Even sekarang i can still pki baju2 kurung yg lama2. Mostly org tak percaya yg i'm already going to be 8 months. Tak kisahlah asal baby okay i'm fine with it. Lagipun ada blessing gak kot...kalau perut memboyot macam mana nak angkat eusoff. Sekarang ni pun i still dukung dia macam biasa.

My hope and pray 2009 ni ada sinar baru dlm my life and my family. Semoga ouir family are bless dgn rahmatNya. More hapiness... insya allah.