SAHM

It has been a month i've been SAHM. Best jugak sebenarnya tapi ni semua atas jasa baik my boss for really understanding with my difficuilty. It all happen bila one of our maid lari hampeh betul... Dah lari satu hal pastuh meninggalkan hutang keliling pinggang. Pastuh g jaja cerita buruk bout my family yg lagi i 'm really mad sebab selama ni dia selalu marah my dad yg terlantar sakit... depan pijak semut pun tak mati tapi hakikatnya itulah. Wallahualam kalau dia pernah pukul or cubit eusoff. Bila dah lari almost 1 week siap sms our another maid nk pinjam duit dahlah ko g curik duit org tu dgn cincin emas lagi tak tahu malu nk pinjam duit apa punya oranglah. Latest dia nak gambar my dad and eusoff! mak aii apa dia buat dia kata nk buat kenangan.Malanglah majikan baru dia. Tapi i just pray for the best for her i will never forget jasa baik dia.

I really hate maid2 yg ada kat kawasan rumah they really like to amik tahu kisah orang. Pastuh suka compare gaji and work load. Siap ada sorang tu kalau dia mals masak or rasa tak sedap boleh dengan selamba kata dia malas dan suruh majikan dia makan luar! Senang betul hidup maid itu and she claim she is dia ketua kampung kat that area semua maids kat situ kena dgr cakap dia.

Hmm talking bout maids smpi bebila tak habis if only my dad tak sakit mmg i tak nk amik maids. Tapi apakan daya. Kalau tak guna khidmat diaorg siapa nk tolong jaga daddy... I cakap betullah i can't jaga daddy with my condition. Kalau dulu masih single gagah jugaklah. Hari tu ada sekali my dad punya hoist stuck! so I had to help my maid to angkat dia. Ya allah lepas tu jugak muntah and rasa nak pitam masa tu i was almost 28 weeks. I pray to god what the best for him and us. To jaga my dad is not as easy as people think my dad mmg nmpk terlantar je tapi his mind is working. So he can tell us what he want. He has his own timetable! tak boleh tidak kena ikut bukannya kisah org tu penat ke sakit ke boring ke. Kalau dulu masa my dad tak cerewet sangat senang je jaga. Tapi bila dia dah mula nk bersuara dan dah pandai marah2 org mmg uji kesabaran. Kalau org yg dtg tgk sekali sekala bolehlah ada patient. Tapi kitaorg yg kat rumah ni adakala hilang sabar gak. Tapi takdelah smpi nk memukul atau marah. Pukul 6 am till 2 am org kena jaga dia je. If i jadi maid pun benggangkan.. I pun selalu cakap kat my dad tolonglah ada perasaan belas kesian kat org. Tapi itulah ujian allah pada kami sekeluarga. Kekadang i'm confiused nk kesian siapa sebenarnya my dad or my mom.

Talking bout eusoff lak dia dah makin bijak he love to watch video yusoff islam and simple songs from you tube. Since i always ada kat rumah he is so clingy dgn my self especially masa nak tido. Risau gak nnti mcm manalah bila adik dia dah lahir. Latest eusoff height is 82cm and weight 11kg. Dia dah pandai salam cium tgn. Tak takut org alhamdulillah. Can say yes and no. Boleh angguk lagi2 kalau dia nak sgt susu. Wish that i can just stay at home forever and jaga eusoff dan adik dia. He loves to read books any kind of books dia akan bawak to me and ask me to read it. Harap2 kekallah tabiat ni.

For adik pulak i'm already 31 weeks. So far okay everything seems to be fine. Ambiotic fluid cukup adik pun active. Praying hard that i can beranak normal. Sebab i nak anak ramai :). Semua barang2 adik dah pun kemas semua dapat dari sepupu dia alya and few from eusoff masa new born dulu. Mengandung kali ni my weight tak bertambah sgt and my perut tak besar sgt. Even sekarang i can still pki baju2 kurung yg lama2. Mostly org tak percaya yg i'm already going to be 8 months. Tak kisahlah asal baby okay i'm fine with it. Lagipun ada blessing gak kot...kalau perut memboyot macam mana nak angkat eusoff. Sekarang ni pun i still dukung dia macam biasa.

My hope and pray 2009 ni ada sinar baru dlm my life and my family. Semoga ouir family are bless dgn rahmatNya. More hapiness... insya allah.

Happy 1st Birthday Eusoff

Today our dearest eusoff is 1 year old. Can't believe that dia dah besar dah nak jadi abg pun :). Kitaorg tak celebrate since ayah dia kena kerja malam huhuhuhu and me myself malas nak buat apa sebab bulan puasa. I just bagi jamuan buka puasa kat surau. Sharp midnight masa tgh BF him i whispered kat telinga eusoff wish him tapi dia mamai so dia tak kisah je. At 4 am dia terjaga nak susu so i bangun nak bancuhkan formula for him and before suapkan botol susu i sang happy birthday to him and kiss at his both cheeks he was smiling and talking happily. Clever boy.

My hope..

• eusoff jadi anak yang baik i.e soleh taat pada perintah Allah, dapat pikul tanggungjawab sebagai abg sulung untuk jaga mummy , ayah dan adik2 insya allah.
  
• Berjaya dalam setiap bidang yang diceburi at the moment nampak macam he is into music and he likes to watch game show i.e BOLOS adoi ayah dia dok ajar la ni..

Achievement ..

• Pandai mengigit kalau suruh dia tido dok dodoi dia kat bahu dia gigit bahu. Tapi mimi tak pernah kena gigit kat bahu sebab tak pernah tidokan dia cam tu i always BF dia je terus dia lelap. So dgn mimi , eusoff akan gigit my perut kalau lambat bangun huhuhu berbekas ada 4 batang gigi at the moment tapi mcm nak tumbuh banyak lagi setiap erytime bila gosokkan gigi dia ada je rasa keras2 kat gusi dia
  
• Sentiasa nak berdiri dah banyak kali jatuh berbekas kat semua tempat dahilah, hidunglah, lutut dgn tapak tgn kulit dah mula mengelupas sebab lasak sangat adoi mengah dibuatnya
• Naik tangga dah hebat dari bawah sampailah atas so mmg tak payah dukung
• He knows where is the ceiling fan
• He can say out loud DUCK
• He loves books compared to TV
• He likes to senyum kat orang yang dia jarang jumpa tapi bila nak dukung melalak macam jinak2 merpati

Itulah our beloved boy. Next entry will be yang lama2 yang tak sempat nak tulis.

update on eusoff and adik

On 14 August 2008 our beloved eusoff dah 11 months old sekejap je dah besar. He is now almost 11 kg. I can't dukung him lama2 rasa sakit kat rahim. His progress:

• dah boleh duduk dari baring dgn pantas sekali
• boleh berdiri sendiri
• kalau kita pimpin tangan dia dah boleh jalan
• mulut riuh sangat
• demanding kalau tak nak mmg dia akan melalak kena mengalah je lah
• so far kalau bawa g jejalan senang naklah dok dlm stroller and dok diam2 kat highchair restaurant
• he really like playing with any size of ball and dgr lagu metallica adoi ayah dialah ni ajar :)
• we notice he likes men more than women macam kalau balik kajang he would rather didukung oleh my FIL and BIL rather than MIL
• now he is very clingy with me may be sebab i ada baby kot
• minum susu dah banyak sgt ada one night tu dia boleh habis 13oz! my susu badan dah kurang sgt dapat bantu pun sikit
• gigi dah ada 4 batang sakit woo bila dia gigit my nenen selalu menjerit kekadang picit hidung dia hahahhaha
• rambut dah mula banyak
• baju dia mostly size for 18 months
• eusoff kalau dia tension dia sebut mama, kalau mimi lambat attend dia jerit mummy lak kalau lambat attend lagi dia terus jerit MIMI! senang cerita. bertuah betul!

okay that's all for eusoff kita bagi kat adik and mama pulak ek.

hmmm on adik so far dah nak masuk 12 weeks alhamdulillah dah dgr bunyi jantung and nmpk jantung kepala, badan and kaki. My segala sickness masih belum hilang still muntah2, pening2, rasa letih sgt2, hilang selera makan, i don't gain weight at all, there are times rasa nak pitam. Selalu melepek je kat office uishk makan gaji buta betul. Naib baik gaklah kerja semua dah nak settle adalah few more things tapi mmg tak larat nak ngadap PC lama2. Hope i will recover soon i'm praying very hard. Tak laratlah kalau berterusan cam nih.

okay bye...i'm going home.

Backdated story... dah bersawang.

Uishks lama betul tak tulis dalam blog ni. I was not too well masa first and second week of july due to morning, evening and afternoon sickness. heheheh for those yang tak tahu lagi yes i'm pregnant again alhamdulillah last saturday dah 8 weeks. Doakanlah semoga kali ni semua selamat.

This time my sickness i.e vomitting, headache, burning sensation kat perut segala mak datuk punya sakit kat pinggang semua datang nothing compared masa mengandungkan eusoff. hmmm dahlah dengan eusoff tengah lasak dan terlebih manja dengan myself sian kat dia. Is okay i'll try to do my very best for both of them. This month was hectic for all of us kat rumah. It started dengan eusoff kena air panas, pastuh dah baik luka dia demam panas shoot up 39.9'c rupanya nak kuar measles. Nasib baik tak lama tiga hari je. Now he back active just like before. Alhamdulillah. Mulut dia sangat riuh macam bertih jagung. Setiap kali nak tido dia bercakap sorang walaupun lampu dah tido pandai dia lah tido sendiri. Sebab dah tahu dia kenyang and pampers pun dah bersih. Yahuuu sekarang dia dah buang air besar almost everyday. He likes air kosong he can finish 2 oz sekali minum. So i'll make sure he drinks at least 3 atau 4 kali sehari. Now days panas sgtlah. Pasang aircond serupa mcm tak pasang. Hopefully by the time bulan puasa nanti kuranglah cuaca panas nih insya allah.

Dalam masa tu masih sempat celebrate birthday my beloved mummy on 8 July. The night before my mom's relative uncle R + family, cousin amir and wife datang bawak cheese cake and hadiah!. Cousin amir bawa kek lapis from johor kiriman from mak P , ya allah sedapnya...tq.

The next day pulak daddy's relative pulak datang with their special dishes. Mak B dengan dalca, roti bom and satay yang sangat sedap. Mak Z dengan very nicely done carrot cup cakes, sup singapore special, homemade roti and not forgetting trifle kiwi. Mak M bawa nasi goreng and daging tetel sambal. My dearest cousin lana yang sgt creative hadiahkan mummy very lovely done cupcakes pelbagai rasa. Last but not least cousin Epi and family datang juga walaupun jauh. Thank you so much... all of us really appreaciate it. Sorry for the very late thank you. Mummy punyalah terkejut memang mimi tak beritahu langsung about the occasion.

Pic above: Delicious satay ayam, daging & perut sebelah dia sup singapore, homemade roti from Mak Z boleh nampak also roti bom Mak B and my stew daging yang i tipu mummy kata nak bawa office hahahahha, cute carrot cup cakes, secreat recipe choc indulgence, nicely decarated cup cakes from cousin Lana and spread of yummy foods. Kalau nak boleh order yummy foods boleh lawat http://www.atikahkitchen.blogspot.com/

In terms of my life pulak dahlah segala sickness ada dengan eusoff pun sakit. Kerja kat office pun berlambak. Tapi rasanya taklah sekelam kabut macam beberapa minggu lepas. Still ada few runways to settle and ada few buildings to check scalling dia. Nampak kat dalam 3ds Max dah cantik bila tengok kat IG nampak kecik lak..salah measure la ni. Is okay itu small matter. yang pening ni parking bays for helicopter aiyoo. okay selamat menyambut hari merdeka yang ke 51! Ini kira blog untuk sepanjang bulan July :)

Unforgettable Weekends

Ni backdated story.
Last Saturday 28 june 2008 we spend most of the day at our new house cleaning, measuring and looking around for a washing machine. Hmm most of the basic things dah ada. Still ada few things to angkut lagi. Barang-barang masa kahwin dulu.

On Sunday 29 June 2008 Cousin lana's house warming. Everything was great! Really like the house. Wish i have the house with ample space for gardening. Hmmm boleh tanam macam-macam. I really enjoyed the roti jala with the great kuah kari. We were there dari Hq baru nak tido petang sampai dia dah siap mandi and dia tido malam so cute he sleep in the hammock. Tq lana for inviting us u are a great host.

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Saturday baru ni ajak mummy pergi subang parade saja2. Ingat nak pergi mothercare nak survey harga playpen since eusoff sekarang sgt2lah active. Tak terkawal. Yelah memang ada 2 maid kat rumah but is not for looking after eusoff mainly to look after tok dad. Diaorang willingly jaga euosff alhamdulillah. To look after tok dad is not that easy he has his own way. At certain time for his changing time, wudu', excercise, take him out for evening walk, bathing, feeding and etc. Thinking to take maid will kira balik duit is not cheap sekarang. At the moment pun lepas tolak itu ini tinggal ciput je at the end of the month. Well is okay that's another story. Back to after coming back from subang parade eusoff terus tertido from 2 pm till 4 pm. I woke up to susun all his baju while talking to along on the phone eusoff, tok mom, kak J and kak S bawak tok dad for evening walk. Then 15 mins later diaorang balik i quickly sediakan his dinner. Lepas dah bagi makan semua dukung eusoff naik atas dudukkan atas lantai beralaskan changing mat. Mummy was around with him. I went to bathroom nak amik gayung nak letak air panas ntah macam mana sambil tadah air panas the gayung terlepas from my hand air panas terpercik kena eusoff! Ya allah he cried so loud ingatkan dia trauma tak taukan dia kena air panas because quite a distance. Masa nak mandikan dia tgk kulit dia gelembung OMG I was so terified terus panggil mummy and Kak J. I can't even drive that time. Bawa g klinik Dr terus sapu Aqua Cream and bagi Ibuprofen. So sekarang my handsome little boy tak boleh pakai seluar panjang for at least a week. Tido pun pakai baju je. Selimutkan je kaki dia. Hmmm sian dia. He seems okay senyum, gelak, main, crawling, makan and minum macam biasa tapi kita yang tengok luka dia ngeri. I'm so sorry sayang ..

Hari Ahad muhasabah diri .

Pictures

I was doing some editing with the pictures jumpalah banyak gambar yang best2. Ingat sekejap lagi nak print out some. Since nak buat kerja office tapi stuck sebab otak dah tepu so baik relaxkan minda dengan buat kerja-kerja editing hahahahhaha. Lagipun dah time lunch.

Since i'm not going out for lunch sebab tengah ganti puasa selama sebulan. Tu lah siapa suruh beranak time puasa hehehehe. Lama tu 30 hari aiyooo baru lepas 4 hari another 26 days to go! insya allah sempat.

Tapi berbaloi all the sacrifice last year yelah dengan sakit contraction pastuh terpaksa c-sect. Berpantang selama 2 bulan. Imagine sebulan tak basuh rambut. Makan segala jenis ikan haruan (pati, bakar, masak kunyit, goreng). Tak makan telur selama 2 bulan. Tak minum air sejuk selama 7 bulan. Uishk...Nampak macam seksa tapi demi kebaikan diri sendiri dan demi eusoff.

Bila tengok eusoff semakin bijak hilang semua keluhan. Itulah pengorbanan seorang mak..
Sayangilah mak kita selagi masih ada nanti bila dah tak de barulah nak menyesal tak ke sedih. Ada setengah orang dapat melihat mak diaorang dari kecik sampai diaorang meninggal, ada orang hanya dapat melihat semasa mereka masih kecil, ada dah mengerti maksud kematian, ada sekadar melihat gambar, ada yang sekadar oarang gambarkan wajah tapi agak sedih jika hanya tahu maknya wujud tapi tak dapat hendak gambarkan langsung wajahnya. Tapi itulah ketentuan ilahi setiap yang dia lakukan pasti ada hikmah. Warna kehidupan ini cukup indah pucuk pangkal kita yang memilih warnanya.

Btw yeah esok weekend. Can't wait to see haiqal on sunday.

9 Months Old

Last Saturday he was 9 months old but we almost forgot since to busy with MIL yelah dia demam lagipun sian sebab dia tak de selera nak makan. Ni mak mertua i'm so serba salah tak tahu apa nak buat kalau mak sendiri kita faham apa nak buat. Tahu selera dia kalau tak sihat. Ni ajak pergi klinik tak nak. Paksa minum milo tak nak gak. Last2 buatkan bubur ikut style mummy. Nasib baik makan sikit. Pastuh belikan active fast. At least don't feel that guilty sebab nak kena balik gak that night heheheheh.

Okay back to my handsome young man punya progress. hmmm

• Dia still belum tumbuh gigi tapi kalau bagi pisang, honey dew, mangga etc bebda lembut dah nampak kesan gigi. Or sometimes he will bite my nenen sakit wooo.


• Dah pandai mengemas tarik wayar telefon pernah sekali line internet putus. Pastuh tarik alas meja semua berlambak. Hisap rubber sebab ayah dia tak sedar dia dah bukak stationery jar! ingat ice cream ke?


• Pandai mengamuk kalau dia tengah main kita grab hmmm mulalah mengamuk sekampung.


• Pandai amik hati orang kalau bawa pergi majlis keramaian macam birthday party, majlis kahwin, kematian siapa-siapa dukung pun okay. sengih je...


• Makan a bit choosy he like pisang, apple, celery, carrot, bread, yogurt and his biscuit. Dah pandai minum from sippy cup.


• Bertarik dah laju tu yang sampai jatuh katil lagi hahahahaha.


• Berat dia 10 kg dan dia suka lentikkan badan dia kalau tak puas hati kalau tak kuat boleh terlepas. Pernah sekali masa mimi pegang nak terlepas nasib baik kak J ada dekat kalau tak mmg dah tersembab atas lantai fuh...


• Mulut sangatlah riuh ada je benda dia dok bercakap.


• Pandai berlakon imagine dia boleh menjerit macam esok dah tak de bila nagkat je terus gelak. hai macam ada butang on off lak.

Well that's our beloved Eusoff... harap dia besar jadi anak yang dapat menjaga mummy, ayah, his siblings insya allah, all his toks and most of all jadi seorang islam yang sebenar jangan hanya pada nama.

Present? tak beli sebab dia dah dapat from his uncle. 1 shirt, 1 t-shirt,1 jeans and sepasang kasut. syukur...